So i think god hates me, any opinions?

mmk, first of all i spend my weekend finding out that the girl im crazy about gets a boyfriend, as soon as i build up the courage to ask her out, then i have work that night, i cut myself open and took off 3 layers of skin on my hand, later dropping a bag of bleach crystals on my hand, you know to help the pain strengthen, and then the next day i find out that the other girl that i like has a boyfriend now, and that none of my friends can see me anywhere because theyre all going out, and i have a whole week off school, to do nothing.